It's funny how your day can go from bad to worse to relatively good all in the space of a few hours. So while sitting in a toilet cubicle crying my eyes out, in the 'worse' part of the day, I wondered what I could do to make myself feel better. So, phone in hand, I open up the internet and clicked on my channel on youtube. Now, although the immediate effect of me reading my profile comments was some more crying, I eventually calmed down, pulled myself together and thought about all the people who appreciate me and my vlogs. Okay, I know its not that many people really, but it's someone, right? It made me concentrate on the fact that a lot of people don't think I'm shit, like I sometimes do. Something to be happy about right?
You're probably thinking I'm some sort of depressed, self-centred or hysterical teenager. I'm not, by the way. I barely ever cry really. I never cry when watching films, except the other day I slightly teared up when watching X-Men: First Class. Yup. Many of my friends have left the country and school and nope, not one tear shed. But when the anger comes on, my emotions betray me. Sad, I know, but I guess that's life.
So what has this blog been about? Appreciation? Making myself feel better? Crying? Or not much at all? Yes, probably the latter. Writing to write, I guess. Well, this has been very informal. Bye.
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