The First Thought

I guess this is like an online diary, except everyone can read it. I doubt anyone will, but it's good to know they could. Good because that way I can censor myself from being too crazy. My mind can often go off on tangents and never get back on track. That's why I was never really good at writing stories as a child. I would start with a long introduction, very detailed, and then that would be half the story. The rest of the time would be spent in a mad rush to get to the ending, which I rarely did. That's why when I got older, I just gave up and marked myself as one who could not write stories, though I still had a lot of imagination. I'd say I've really started to realise this recently. See, I've started a youtube channel and I make a video perhaps every once a week. I've been going for a couple of months now and I'm up to 37 subscribers, which is quite good seeing as the videos aren't even that good, even though I think they're ridiculously funny, but I guess I have to try and see through that.

I talked about my childhood, but I guess I'm still a child really, seeing as I'm only 16. But this is the time when all the big decisions are made and I still feel far too young, this feeling is increased when I look in the mirror. I  look too young to be going to university in a couple of years! I would suppose my parents put quite a lot of pressure on me, my mother mainly, but she didn't start early enough and I've developed the ability to try and tune what's she's saying out. I'm not ignoring her advice, she just says the same the thing every time. A parenting technique both my parents have picked up. But my mother has also developed an over protection method where she believes everything she reads in high-regarded newspapers without having first-hand experience. A prime exanple of this would be my mother not trusting youtube, thinking if I have as much as my face displayed I'll be killed by a stalker. So I've kept her in the dark. Ah the woes of being a teenager.